I love you...
Friday, March 12, 2010 @ 11:42 AM
As much as I hate to admit.. Yes, we broke up.
Not because we dont love each other anymore, but because that's the best thing you could ever do to some1 that you truly love, if being together with them could hurt them. We have been together since ages, and you had become part of my life. We wouldn't be coming up to this end if at the first place, I didn't leave. I wish everything could turn back, because leaving you is my last resolution. I cannot deny that you are the best guy I ever had. But i am just too weak. I couldnt take it anymore. You are right, it has nothing to do with my friends. It's just that I am so tired of LDR. I needed some1 to always be there to assist me. I needed some1 to be hold my back when I fall. I know you did all you can to make me feel the same. But is sucks so bad knowing that the person you want the most is on the other side of the world. I tried all I can to make everything work. Nothing is the same anymore. I woke up from nightmares in tears, wishing that the first person I could talk to is you. But all i get is those long dialling tone that is so so sickening and made you gave up on calling. I dont know how make you understand, you are the best guy I ever had. You are the 1 who had accompany me through the worst year of my life. Cheering me up when you yourself is in tears. Telling me that everything will be fine, when you know that it is not. Singing songs to make me sleep when I couldnt. Getting the best of everything for me. It's so hard for me to actually leave you. But things cannot go on like that, I dont want to hurt you more. I am sorry. I know you too do wish that some1 could care for you, but I cant do it anymore, that's why I wish you could find some1 better than me. I dont want you to stay and suffer, because of my ignorance. Please forgive me!! The last thing I want you to know is that, If ever there is a chance to meet again, you know I'll always come back to you. I love you....
Forgive me for my weakness. I am so sorry..!
Labels: Forgive me
Sunday, February 28, 2010 @ 3:41 AM
My mom went home on Friday. Not gonna come back till April. It'll be fast anyway. Since mom is away, which also means party time with friends. Lol. Not exactly party, but had great fun going out together. I've been hanging out with this group of Jie Jie (Sisters) and Gor Gor (brothers), *studying their last year in Uni*. Haven been going out with them for weeks, ever since my mom came. We went to the city on Saturday, but didn't manage to stay for the Madigra. We went dinner in Strathfield instead, Korean BBQ. Then we went all the way back to the city again, for karaoke. By the time I'm home it's 2 already. Tiring day though.
Didnt manage to take any pictures, cause they are over with the 'camwhore' stage. XD But still manage to steal a picture or two from them. They look much older than me, that's because they are elder than me. XD. I only manage to steal pictures of 4 of them (I am closer to this 4 obviously).
Pressies received this year (from them)
1. Swarovski Necklace
2. Ipod Nano
On My Birthday...
@ 3:31 AM
...went dinner with mom and a mysterious person (cannot be named.. XD) at Bankstown Club. Had Spanish food, Paella as main, and Caesar salad. It was an awesome day, CAUSE IT'S MY BIRTHDAY.. Muahahaha.. I am 18 now.. which mean i am LEGAL.. Lols.. Not much pictures taken..
Happy Birthday M...
@ 3:19 AM
It's way past my birthday and I haven been blogging much again. It's because I have the 'best' connection in the world. Nothing much on my birthday though. 2 days before, mom held a small gathering, with Tash family. Will let the pictures do the talking. =)
Cake 'cutting' time...
Happy Birthday Sis....
Saturday, February 20, 2010 @ 4:20 AM
I miss you...And Happy Birthday Sis
... This is the few first things I want to say to you. Time has gone past us so fast. It's your 16th Birthday, and once again, I cant celebrate with you this year. Still remember how we celebrate our birthday together? I wonder if that day will ever come again. Hoping that there would be a chance out there, for us to hang out together again. Shopping, gossiping and overnights..!!! Again.
Have a great year sis..! You know I love you.. =)
Labels: Happy Bday, short post
Happy Chinese New Year & Happy Valentines
Sunday, February 14, 2010 @ 9:38 PM
There's always a reason for something. The reason why my blog is under 'construction', it's because some1 wants to motivate me to blog more often. I'm seriously a bludger..! Cant be bothered uploading pictures or blog; but he succeed 'motivating' me. So yea, here's your blog post. =P
Obviously, I dont really like Valentines nowadays. So let's just talk about Chinese New Year. We held a small gathering at home with family and some friends. It was pretty much fun, but i have to say, it's really tiring having a party at home. First of all, that's because I have to prepare food for the guests and of course serve them. By the end of the party, we're dead tired. Wish you were here though.. =)
We've bought cakes, red wines and beer (of course). It's different from Malaysian's celebration. We love gambling during CNY, but basically we dont here. Miss my hometown real much. =) But yea, it was still fun. Something different. =) It always worth a try. So yea, here are the pictures. Not gonna label or give description yet. Cause the blog is pretty much NOT DONE editing, and there's some errors uploading pictures. So.. Enjoy. =)
Labels: Happy CNY, Valentines
Happy? 22nd Anniversary Baby..
Wednesday, February 10, 2010 @ 5:19 AM
Happy Anniversary baby...
We've made to the 22nd Month...
I think this is the worst anniversary we had. I'm sorry things turned so bad. Tonight, i finally realise that you've changed so much within months. You've became so mature. I feel so bad for just noticing the changes in you at the very last chance. You didn't cry tonight, but i sobbing all the way through. It actually hurts more to not see you cry. It's because i know you're crying on the inside. I've hurt you unlimited times. And loved you before with all I have. I feel so impressed with what you told me.
You said, 'I feel so proud for letting you go, more proud than being together with you'
It shows how much you've changed from before. You said if letting go is the only choice that leads me to a better way, you would. I feel so touched by you. I didn't know what i wanted. Because all i know is, I dont wanna let you go. You were so determined. I've never seen you so 'man-ly' before. Not till today. Thank you for letting me know about everything. Thank you for giving me what's best for me. You mean a lot to me. If..If we couldn't be together, I still hope to have you around.
Because, You're the best thing I can ever have in life.
Thank you. And for the last time, Sorry..
Labels: love you always