Every since I came here, i have been blogging on how much i dislike here. How much i want to go back. how sucky is life here. And i guess all thiss adds up into a conclusion, that is, I couldn't fit in with these changes. I cannot face the fact that i am away from my home, my frens, my family and you. I tried hard each day to fit in. But i know no matter how much i can fit it, i can never change the fact that i could not take controls of things happening anymore. And that i could not get involved in everything you guys did in M'sia. I am not trying to make conflict here. But i want you to know, i am worried about you. And that living here all by myself is tough. I need your support so much. I need you to tell me that you will be there for me whenever i need you. It will never keep me comfort knowing you are not in front of the comp with me. It feels uneasy without you after schooling. I know you blamed me for all this. But i honestly is suffering through this too. I never made this happen. Maybe i did, but just part of it. I didn't mean to hurt any1 including you, my dearest. If you think you want to, you insist to, then go on with it. I am trying not to be so sensitive. I work for it here. I know you made many sacrifices. I wasn't there pampered you to bed. You want me to be there for you too. I know. I know. But i hope you can understand it takes time for me to fit in here before everything goes well. Please bare with me a little more. I dont want to lose you, and hoping you know that i can't do anything besides stopping you from certain things. I am sorry.

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