Many people like to ask me 'How's Sydney treating you?'. The answer is Sydney is treating me well; but not the people. I was emotionally broke down yesterday. I feel so helpless. It feels like, i'm losing my life to Australia. Guess what people?? The family i am living with, restrict me from on9-ing. It is stated that i am only allowed to only until 11. Aussie time 11. Obviously, that did upset me. I was crying the whole night. Yea, whole night. My eyes were so so swallon. I am crying not only that, but many more family conflict. Why should some1 ruled my life? It's my choice on what i want. I have been a real good gal. I dont drug. I dont smoke. I dont drink. I dont kill. I dont rape. I dont murder. I score good results. But why?? Why are they doing this to me?? I thought of suicide. And every now and then, you hear me saying it. Do i really want to die? Maybe not. But i might lose my mind someday. The stress is all over me. It's controlling me. Overtaking me. 

Labels: I want my life back